It never goes away

January 4, 2008
Mood: Dark

For a fleeting moment, hopelessness touched me again with its wispy fingers. Not so much hopelessness as darkness, though.

I thought I was done with that. I was wrong.

It never goes away. You can only suppress it, but it never truly leaves you. Darkness stays. No matter how brightly the sun burns, there is always the darkness that lingers in the corners. Once the light flickers, it rises, ready to pounce, ready to ensnare, ready to haunt.

I wish there was someone who knew me so well, they'd notice when that haunted look starts showing up in my eyes again.

I don't know. Nothing particularly bad has happened to me to warrant such... erratic thoughts.

There is something wrong with me. I know there is.

I just want it to stop.