It's As If This Movie Was Made For Me

[Watch me needlessly project myself on fictional characters.]

This is an accurate depiction of how I feel right now.

Look at them. Both with broken hearts; aching... hurting... both knowing that there can be no turning back.

I feel for them both.

Words of Comfort: Part I

(aka: Sadly, This Realization Will Never Hit A Certain Someone)

She invited me. She didn't know if she should. She was trying to figure out if I really have changed or... if I’m still the same old S.O.B. I've always been.

But she always gave me a chance.

832 chances.

And I used up every one of them.

832's her limit. Make a note.

- Gregory House (House MD, S06E08 'Ignorance is Bliss')

Over You

Now that it's all said and done

I can't believe you were the one

To build me up and tear me down

Like an old abandoned house

What you said when you left

Just left me cold and out of breath

I fell too far, was in way too deep

Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming

I should've started running a long, long time ago

And I never thought I'd doubt you

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure

I guess it's really over

I'm finally getting better

Now I'm picking up the pieces

Spending all of these years putting my heart back together

The day I thought I'd never get through...

I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls

Dragged the memories down the halls

Packed your bags and walked away

There was nothing I could say

And when you slammed the front door shut

A lot of others opened up

So did my eyes so I could see that you never were the best for me

Well I never saw it coming

I should've started running a long, long time ago

And I never thought I'd doubt you

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure

I guess it's really over

I'm finally getting better

Now I'm picking up the pieces

Spending all of these years putting my heart back together

The day I thought I'd never get through...

I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming

I should've started running a long, long time ago

And I never thought I'd doubt you

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know

Well, I never saw it coming

I should've started running a long, long time ago

And I never thought I'd doubt you

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure

I guess it's really over

I'm finally getting better

Now I'm picking up the pieces

Spending all of these years putting my heart back together

Well I'm putting my heart back together

'Cause I got over you...

Well, I got over you...

I got over you...

'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through...

I got over you.

Things Don't Always End The Way We Want

...but sometimes, the ending turns out to fit perfectly.

My favourite movies EVER in the entire world are Kill Bill vol 1 and vol 2.

I love everything about them. I love the crazy, bloody violence in volume 1. I love the toned-down, film noir feel of volume 2. I love how they both tell the same story, but in drastically different ways.

Lots of people complained about how the final showdown between The Bride and Bill was anticlimactic. It was indeed the shortest fight in both movies (there was a longer, more intense showdown planned, but was scratched due to budget/scheduling conflicts). But I don't mind, really. I think it ended the whole story perfectly. It added a brilliant touch of realism by reflecting a prominent truth in life; things don't always end the way we expect. We don't always get to say goodbye; we don't always get to resolve conflicts properly. And sometimes, even when we do get closure, it doesn't always happen the way we want.

So yes. In life, lots of things end rather anticlimactically.

I could go on and on and make a list of EVERYTHING I love about both movies... but that list would just go on forever, and I don't have forever... so I'll just end this post by quoting my favourite part from the final chapter: Face to Face.

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Bill: And for the record; letting somebody think that somebody they love is dead - when they're not - is quite cruel! I mourned you for three months... and in the third month of mourning you, I tracked you down. I wasn't trying to track *you* down, I was trying to track down the fucking assholes that I thought had killed you. So I find you! And what do I find? Not only are you not dead; you're getting married to some fucking jerk... and you're pregnant! I... overreacted.

Beatrix: .... you 'overreacted'? Is that your explanation?

Bill: I didn't say I was going to explain myself; I said I was gonna tell you the truth. But if that's too cryptic; let's get literal... I'm a killer. I'm a murdering bastard; you know that. And there are consequences to breaking the heart of a murdering bastard. You experienced some of them. Was my reaction really that surprising?

Beatrix: Yes, it was. Could you do what you did? Of course you could. But I never thought you would or could do that to me.

Bill: I'm really sorry Kiddo, but you thought wrong.

And then they fight, and she kills him.

PERFECTION, in my humble opinion. So much raw emotion hidden in between the lines. I LOVE IT TO BITS.