An Emo Bulletin

September 27, 2007
Mood: **unknown**

I want to do a lot of stuff. I want to search for my favorite things on google, I want to talk to a certain someone...

But I don't want to be hurt anymore.

The ice is melting, and the danger of sudden defrosting is becoming all too real. It scares me.

Had I tears to shed, I would cry. But sadly, I can't.

I must be a masochist. It's the only explanation; the only reason why I keep on walking the same path over and over again even though it ends in the same sad story every single time. I never learn. I hope that one day I will.

And I who thought that things have changed. But I guess you can never ever be quit of the darkness eh? It lingers... hanging over you like a wispy net... No matter how fast you run, it's still there. No matter how long you stay in the sun, it's still there. That, or maybe I'm just a really negative person.

Right now there is a look of utter exasperation on my face. It is coupled with sadness, resignation, and some other thing I can't place. Indifference? Perhaps.

Oh, how I love writing in cryptic messages.

Now it's even worse than before. Before, I only wanted one option. Now I still want that option, but at the same time I fear it. Trapped between two worlds, sweet.

Remind me why I walk this path again?

I don't want to do it anymore. I don't want to be hurt again. I don't think I can take it.

When will the darkness go away? But then again, where one exists, so must the other. Balance. Right.

I need to stop before I hurt myself again...