September 10, 2007
Mood: *flickering between extremes*
*le sigh*
Have you ever had one of those days... not even days; moments... where you just suddenly become devoid of all emotion. Like, zilch. No feelings. None at all. Zip.
There was a point in my life when I was grateful for that... but I'm not so sure now.
Like, how would you react if you're just sitting there... and suddenly, you realize that you have lost all traces of feelings for your beloved. It's weird; scary; insane. You feel like it was just a dream, and waking hour suddenly arrived.
*le sigh*
Breaking away for a moment...
why is it that we often do stupid things in front of people we don't want to do stupid things in front of?
Er, perhaps I should rephrase that.
It's just insane, that when we desperately do not want to screw up in front of someone we like... well, we do screw up.
Law of attraction. Right. I get it.
But still... it's weird. And extremely unfair. And uncomfortable. And awkward.
Sometimes even when you try to reassure yourself over and over again that it's fine... well, it's not.
Sometimes it just makes you want to hide yourself for ten years...
Screw this. It'll be alright... right?
My emotions are back now. And I'm not really sure if I want them back.
Oooohh... maybe I just go into some 'instant numb mode' when I do something stupid... or when I think I do something stupid. Like a self-preservation thing, ya know?
I kinda like this.
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